2009年4月30日星期四

FINALLY~~~ FINISHED EXAMS = BACK HOMETOWN

Yeah~yeah~yeah~
Wow~wow~wow~
Finally~finally~finally
Finish my final exam lo~~~~~~~~~~~~ LOL...

Wow~ finally can relax le....
So stress for this 2 weeks of exams...
Finished exam then that mean holidays are COMING~~~ lol...
That mean can back hometown lo...
How many days I did not back hometown? I think already have 2 months lo...
So miss my family & friends, specially is my "daughter" la... lol...

By the way, i REALLY want THANK all of my friends who are taught me revision and had study group with me...
If WITHOUT your helped, i think i would not get well at my exams... lol...

Besides that, I have some ANTI-FAST FOOD...
because i so active to fast food restaurant for that 2 weeks...
KFC, MCDONALD... really had some scare to hear that two types of names... lol..
I think i will avoid to that 2 types of restaurant for a period time... LOL...

I hope all my friends can have a HAPPY HOLIDAY~~~~
Enjoy your holiday la~~~~~ hehe....

2009年4月27日星期一

MY 3RD & 4TH PAPER

Wow~~~
Finally finished my M'sia Culture (3rd) & Counselling Methods(4th) paper...

So happy now because that 2 papers i knew how to do... LOL...
i sure i can pass that papers but not sure can get what gred la...
If can then i want get A lo... LOL...







But at here i want to thank people who help me and teach me about that 2 papers...
THANK YOU ALL OF U...
If without UR help i sure i wont be so understand to do...

By the way, i still left 1 subject need to resit...
so really want to prepare well for it...
because really feel stress for that subject...
but i will gambateh to do well at my last paper...

So, hope all my friends can get well at their final...
And gambateh for those who still have papers...
加油...加油...加油...

2009年4月23日星期四

CONFUSING

Really dun know what can i do, how should i do now...
The problem that i faced before i thought no need to think so much then that would not happen again...
Is me so innocent??? The answer is YES... because i facing that problem AGAIN........

1 year ago, i try to persuade my parent to let me to study at TARC,
in the beginning, my parent not allow me to study again,
the most important reason is our finance problem not suitable for me to study,
that also is the reason for me so stress at that moment,
but i heard from my cousin said can lend then PTPTN loan,
and that can let my family no need so burden for my course fees and my cost of living...
after heard that information then i try my best to persuade my parent,
finally they allowed me to study...

after to apply the PTPTN, that just can allowed me to lend about RM10, 000,
at first, i thought that is enough for my course fees,
but after that just know that loan is bank in to our account by 1 time of half years,
then they only bank in about RM2, 500 per times...
after i count how much i need for my all semesters then i found out that loan not enough to use for me for this 2 years...
So, i feel VERY STRESS now...
because my finance problem appear a BIG problem now...

2 days ago, my mum called me then i got to told her that problem....

M: So long no call u, are u fine??
S: Ya, still like that lo, same lo...
M: Then what u doing now?
S: Doing revision lo, because already start to exam.
M: Oh, then u dun want do revision too late arr and can u handle it??
S: Ya, i know la, okay lo...
M: Then when u want back home??
S: Do not know yet, maybe before May or before 5 of may lo..

After that, she told me about this few weeks what she doing and what happen at home...

S: Mum, i told u, i don't have so much money in my bank account again. How?? I got asked "little sister"(my 2nd sister) to borrow me, but she told me she do not have too. Then she also asked me to do part-time job to earn money.
M: Then how u think?
S: Don't know la, because i afraid i can not concentrate on my study. By the way, she also asked me to ask big sister to borrow from her.
M: Then do u have ask her?
S: No, because u think la, she got her family need to support la, besides that, she still have 4 children need to take care, so i really difficult to ask her to borrow me lo...
M: Then how now? Stop study?
S: Maybe lo, if really don't have money to let me continue then that is the final solution lo... never mind la, this problem discuss after i go back hometown la...
M: Okay la...... bla..bla..bla...

Feel so stress now, really want cry out... Haiz...
If stop continue my 2nd year then i really so heart pain...
because that have many friends at here then feel very sad when want say bye bye to them and can not continue my study, the most important point is I waste my times and money for this year...
but what can i do now??
CONFUSING>>>>>>>

2009年4月22日星期三

MY 2ND PAPER OF FINAL EXAM

wow~~~~~~
Finished my 2nd paper jor... ( but still have 3 subjects)
that is language subject --- English for Social Science
that is a damn difficult language subject i took & so rush time to do...
I heard many people told me before that paper is damn difficult... haiz...
No way la, who ask me is SSH (School of Social Science) student...
but nasib baik i'm not SOT (School of Technology) student, if not wan take English for SOT... LOL.. kidding...

i really feel wan pengsan when i looked that essay questions on the exam paper...
it really so hard to understand what I want to write...
maybe is my problem cuz my English is "pan tong shui"... LOL...

Whatever la...
finally i oso finished it on time...
but hav some questions really don't understand...

Hope all my paper for this semester & next semester & next next semester & next next next semester can get a good result... LOL...
so GAMBATEH to all my frens la...
then wan focus on my next paper for tmr le...
Malaysia culture>>>>>

2009年4月20日星期一

1ST DAY OF MY EXAM...

Finally, exam start...
my 1st subject is Tamadun... haiz...
that is my resit paper...

Luckily that is easy than be4 cuz is resit(and hav many tips)... lol...
I heard people said resit paper is more easy than people who take at that semester,
but that is not true cuz i asked my other frens from other course and they oso take at this sem,
but the answer is they took the exam same wif that people who resit...

Perhaps that is sub subject not main subject gua... lol...
so hope all the paper i take can be more easy...
haha....

GAMBATEH la...
hope all my frens who take exam can make good at that...
GOOD LUCK ALL OF U>>>>

BAD DAY (Part II)

Continue BAD DAY...

that day night, i had a revision at Mcdonald wif some of my course mate & cls mate...
i'm feel very sorry to them cuz my not in good mood after they ask me something then my voice had some higher when i answer them...
i hope they can accept my apologize..
cuz i really not unintentional to hurt others...

Sometimes, ireally cant to control my own mood even i wan to control it & even i wan to forget that matters let me unhappy...
so, that will let me feel very stress & feel sorry to people who talking with me at that moment...

i really hope i can cope it...

SORRY FOR U ALL>>>

2009年4月19日星期日

BAD DAY...

Exam coming soon....
feel very tired 2day, but feel a bit happy before... haiz...

yesterday, i had a good feeling for revision,
but i'm really don't think that will disturb my roommate to do revision...

That day, Joanne came my house around 9.30am,
then she taught me and helped me how to set my blogger,
cuz i asked her helped me last time,
after that, we had a lunch at my restaurant--"SKY"... lol...

after lunch then we stared our revision but around 3pm,
joanne said she wan eat rojak then we went down to buy it...
then the problem coming at that moment...
My roommate sent a sms msg to me....

That sms is about;
he don't wan me bring any frens to house again cuz that will let him cant concentrate to do revision, and that is he last sem for this year then after that he will graduate and point is he don't wan to repeat or resit anymore....

when i received that sms i feel very shock cuz i'm never think that will disturb him...
mayb our had make some noice when we do revision,
btw, i also feel sad and down when i received it, cuz i feel that is my problem(disturb him) but also hav some annoy...lol

besides that, i also have noticed that i have a distance with my roommate & housemate....
sometimes that will let me think i'm the person who extra in the house cuz when they talking i jus doing my own things(online, watching movie),
mayb they not really like me...
so, if really think that will let me cant to handle that situation,
then mayb i'll to move to another house again... lol..
but i think that will let a lot of people to scold me gua... lol...
btw, i also lazy to move again...
haiz...


what a damn day for that...

hope all the things can be better....
cuz really so tired to face that problem again........

2009年4月17日星期五

不足 《=》拖累


这学期,好多事都不顺哦。。。

但这学期里,终于明白自己是多么の无能。。。
才知道自己の不足只会给其他人带来困扰,
也许那不是自己の强项。。。
但也努力去完成了。。。
或许我做の不是很好,但有必要说得那么重吗??
或许真的该好好想想了。。。

之前曾对自己说过不要太在意他人の言语,
但始终自己还是很在乎,
虽然知道这样对自己来说真の很辛苦,
感觉好像是为了他人而活,始终做不了自己。。。
但真的很难控制自己的想法。。。
怎么办????

他人の言语听在耳里,看在眼里感觉像是一把一把の刀刺在自己の心里。。。
心真の很难受,泪太重, 眼快撑不住了。。。。
很辛苦。。。。。。。!!!!!

心情小站

感觉有点累了。。。
是否时间真の能改变一个人,还是人因环境而改变呢?
以往の笑脸真の能够一直延续下去吗????!
还是那只是个伪装の道具。。。。。。只因用来保护自己の真实一面。。。。。。
这难道就是所谓的逃避吗???
其实并不然吧!!又有谁能把最真实の自己一直摆放在其他人面前呢!!!
感觉就像赤裸裸の被人看光了!!
或许自己都不了解自己难道还奢望其他人来了解吗??
当一个人对另一个人好时,或许是另有目的の吧!
可能一旦意识到对方没有那么多“利用价值“时,态度就会有些改变了吧!!
这难道不是吗?或许这就是所谓の朋友吧!!
也许这些态度并不是对每一个人,但是这些都会发生在我们の周围, 只是并没注意吧。。。
往往在生活中,你最信认の,最要好の,对你最好の都会是伤你最深の。。。
因为在believe中也会有一个"lie"字。。。
短暂的时光是最美好, 最灿烂の, 但长时间の相处就会发现彼此の缺点,
要是彼此都没有互相の容忍,忍让,那后果可想而知。。。。。。
但是又有谁能做到最后呢>>>>>>>>?????
人通常都会在其他人面前说别人の是非吧!!!
那有没想过当你在说别人の是非时,另一个人也在说着你的是非呢??
或许每个人都有着自己の方式去生活,但遇到别人时是否真的能迁就对方呢???
也许今日の“朋友”将会变成明日的“陌生人”!!!!!!

左边?右边? 还是。。。??

迷茫?! 混乱?! 搞不清,弄不明。。。?!

事情发生了太快,让人措说不及!!


雾。。。好浓。。。

浓得让人害怕,怕得多不敢移动。。。

深怕一旦移动就会回不了头,也怕四周是个无底洞———跌下去就完了。。。

所以只好留在原地, 不敢动。。。


好暗。。。!!暗得让人分不清方向,

恐惧,害怕的感觉多涌了上来。。。

感觉就好像小时侯发生过的一样,

不知如何是好,只知道哭,害怕。。。完全不知所措。。。

但却被一把熟悉的声音,一双手所救了。。。

但。。。。。。。。现在又有谁能帮得了我呢。。。???

沉重的压力快把自己压扁了。。。


好想逃。。。

真想逃到熟悉又温暖的窝里,一切都不用想,

但真能如此吗???

如果真能逃避,又能逃到何时呢??

或许逃避不是一种好方法,但面对就真的能解决吗??

但也知道不面对就始终解决不了???


到底该选择左边?右边? 还是。。。??


真的感觉快窒息了.....!!!!!