~差劲~

这几天不知怎么了，心情很低落。。
脑子里总有不该有的念头，这些念头让自己总觉得自己很差劲。。
该怎么办好呢？？？？？

突然很想念你们，好想你们马上就在我的身边。。
但想了想，自己真的还不够成熟。。。
永远都需要别人的关心，照顾，
但自己都不能回报些什么。。
永远都会长不大。。。

真希望自己还是小时候那样。。。
不过时间不留人了。。。
真的是时候变“大人”了。。

双亲节

看了我堂妹的blog：<我想家。。。却是个回不去的家。。。>
有感而发，
脑袋里的回忆一幕幕闪过。。。看了好。。。（不知如何形容）

母亲节过了， 父亲节即将到来。。。
在此祝福全天下的
爸爸们：父亲节快乐
妈妈们：母亲节快乐

父母亲是我们最亲近的家人，有他们在的地方就最有安全感，心里也最踏实。。
或许不是每一个子女都与父母有很好的关系，
但他们始终还是我们的爸爸妈妈，
也许我们的想法与他们的不同，可能他们也不能接受我们的想法，
这就是所谓的代沟吧。。。
但只要我们肯耐心的沟通与讲解，让他们了解我们， 这也不是不可能的。。

千万不要等到失去后才来珍惜，那时就已经为时已晚了。。。
人，面對外人時，總是可以表現得雍容大肚、心平氣和，
但面對自己最親近的家人，卻往往一點小事就足以皺起眉頭，甚至出言相傷。。。
可想而知， 很多的人都曾经这样对过自己的父母，我也不例外。。。
只因一点小事就乱发少爷/小姐脾气，
但试问我们自己，是什么原因父母亲会对我们“唠叨”，“啰嗦”？？？
他们并不是我们的女佣，佣人，仆人。。。
要是你不是他们的子女，试问他们会睬你吗？？？会对你“啰嗦”，对你发“唠叨”吗？？

几乎所有人都想过，别人的父母亲比自己的好，
要是别人的父母亲是自己的那该都好。。。
但当你在想着的同时，别人也希望你的父母是自己的父母。。。
因为每个人都只看到别人好的一面，而往往没发觉自己的是最适合自己。。。
等察觉到时已经太迟了。。。！！！

有多少人想有人来叮咛，想有人提醒注意饮食，

在离乡背井的那时，电话的响起，有人来慰问的感觉。。。

成绩考不好，会有人骂，有人给力量冲刺。。。
有人能够给你撒娇，任性。。。
有人会因为你所做的一切而感到骄傲～～

但有部分的人没有这种经历了。。。
所以请好好珍惜身边的人。。。
因为我们不知道明天会发生什么事。。。

是否曾想过，要是双亲都不在后。。。
这种事一想到（根本不敢想）眼泪就会控制不住（有点想哭了）。。。

曾经有人对我说：胜，我没有爸爸妈妈了...
真的不知道如何回答。。。

所以请珍惜他们。。。因为再也找不到第二个他们了。。。
在此祝福我的爸爸妈妈：身体健康，永远快乐。。。父亲节快乐，母亲节快乐。。。

FINALLY~~~ FINISHED EXAMS = BACK HOMETOWN

Yeah~yeah~yeah~
Wow~wow~wow~
Finally~finally~finally
Finish my final exam lo~~~~~~~~~~~~ LOL...

Wow~ finally can relax le....
So stress for this 2 weeks of exams...
Finished exam then that mean holidays are COMING~~~ lol...
That mean can back hometown lo...
How many days I did not back hometown? I think already have 2 months lo...
So miss my family & friends, specially is my "daughter" la... lol...

By the way, i REALLY want THANK all of my friends who are taught me revision and had study group with me...
If WITHOUT your helped, i think i would not get well at my exams... lol...

Besides that, I have some ANTI-FAST FOOD...
because i so active to fast food restaurant for that 2 weeks...
KFC, MCDONALD... really had some scare to hear that two types of names... lol..
I think i will avoid to that 2 types of restaurant for a period time... LOL...

I hope all my friends can have a HAPPY HOLIDAY~~~~
Enjoy your holiday la~~~~~ hehe....

MY 3RD & 4TH PAPER

Wow~~~
Finally finished my M'sia Culture (3rd) & Counselling Methods(4th) paper...

So happy now because that 2 papers i knew how to do... LOL...
i sure i can pass that papers but not sure can get what gred la...
If can then i want get A lo... LOL...







But at here i want to thank people who help me and teach me about that 2 papers...
THANK YOU ALL OF U...
If without UR help i sure i wont be so understand to do...

By the way, i still left 1 subject need to resit...
so really want to prepare well for it...
because really feel stress for that subject...
but i will gambateh to do well at my last paper...

So, hope all my friends can get well at their final...
And gambateh for those who still have papers...
加油...加油...加油...

CONFUSING

Really dun know what can i do, how should i do now...
The problem that i faced before i thought no need to think so much then that would not happen again...
Is me so innocent??? The answer is YES... because i facing that problem AGAIN........

1 year ago, i try to persuade my parent to let me to study at TARC,
in the beginning, my parent not allow me to study again,
the most important reason is our finance problem not suitable for me to study,
that also is the reason for me so stress at that moment,
but i heard from my cousin said can lend then PTPTN loan,
and that can let my family no need so burden for my course fees and my cost of living...
after heard that information then i try my best to persuade my parent,
finally they allowed me to study...

after to apply the PTPTN, that just can allowed me to lend about RM10, 000,
at first, i thought that is enough for my course fees,
but after that just know that loan is bank in to our account by 1 time of half years,
then they only bank in about RM2, 500 per times...
after i count how much i need for my all semesters then i found out that loan not enough to use for me for this 2 years...
So, i feel VERY STRESS now...
because my finance problem appear a BIG problem now...

2 days ago, my mum called me then i got to told her that problem....

M: So long no call u, are u fine??
S: Ya, still like that lo, same lo...
M: Then what u doing now?
S: Doing revision lo, because already start to exam.
M: Oh, then u dun want do revision too late arr and can u handle it??
S: Ya, i know la, okay lo...
M: Then when u want back home??
S: Do not know yet, maybe before May or before 5 of may lo..

After that, she told me about this few weeks what she doing and what happen at home...

S: Mum, i told u, i don't have so much money in my bank account again. How?? I got asked "little sister"(my 2nd sister) to borrow me, but she told me she do not have too. Then she also asked me to do part-time job to earn money.
M: Then how u think?
S: Don't know la, because i afraid i can not concentrate on my study. By the way, she also asked me to ask big sister to borrow from her.
M: Then do u have ask her?
S: No, because u think la, she got her family need to support la, besides that, she still have 4 children need to take care, so i really difficult to ask her to borrow me lo...
M: Then how now? Stop study?
S: Maybe lo, if really don't have money to let me continue then that is the final solution lo... never mind la, this problem discuss after i go back hometown la...
M: Okay la...... bla..bla..bla...

Feel so stress now, really want cry out... Haiz...
If stop continue my 2nd year then i really so heart pain...
because that have many friends at here then feel very sad when want say bye bye to them and can not continue my study, the most important point is I waste my times and money for this year...
but what can i do now??
CONFUSING>>>>>>>

MY 2ND PAPER OF FINAL EXAM

wow~~~~~~
Finished my 2nd paper jor... ( but still have 3 subjects)
that is language subject --- English for Social Science
that is a damn difficult language subject i took & so rush time to do...
I heard many people told me before that paper is damn difficult... haiz...
No way la, who ask me is SSH (School of Social Science) student...
but nasib baik i'm not SOT (School of Technology) student, if not wan take English for SOT... LOL.. kidding...

i really feel wan pengsan when i looked that essay questions on the exam paper...
it really so hard to understand what I want to write...
maybe is my problem cuz my English is "pan tong shui"... LOL...

Whatever la...
finally i oso finished it on time...
but hav some questions really don't understand...

Hope all my paper for this semester & next semester & next next semester & next next next semester can get a good result... LOL...
so GAMBATEH to all my frens la...
then wan focus on my next paper for tmr le...
Malaysia culture>>>>>

1ST DAY OF MY EXAM...

Finally, exam start...
my 1st subject is Tamadun... haiz...
that is my resit paper...

Luckily that is easy than be4 cuz is resit(and hav many tips)... lol...
I heard people said resit paper is more easy than people who take at that semester,
but that is not true cuz i asked my other frens from other course and they oso take at this sem,
but the answer is they took the exam same wif that people who resit...

Perhaps that is sub subject not main subject gua... lol...
so hope all the paper i take can be more easy...
haha....

GAMBATEH la...
hope all my frens who take exam can make good at that...
GOOD LUCK ALL OF U>>>>